Poem 2 2-6-23

I am strong

I listen to the voices inside my head

They are right and they are wrong

What’s my objective reality

Good or bad who knows

Listening to jazz music

Going with the flow

Play with words

Make people laugh

Make people feel better

Dance the pain away

Shake it out

How to quiet the voice

How to quiet the mind

My morning routine keeps me disciplined

And yet I still do my bad habit

In the space between

In the transitions between tasks

Focused on the past

Trying to make the good feelings last

Savoring the moment

Grateful for my blessings

All the words of wisdom

Come together

All the books I read help

Just wish I applied them better

It’s so hard to go from idea to action

I’m a visionary

I can see the forest, but not the trees

With the end goal in mind

I need to work backward

And find the next best step

To move the needle forward

Do the bad habit when I’m bored

But boredom is just a state of mind

Move around and change my state

Take action

Set goals

I care too much or not at all

Dress to impress

Stand tall

I am proud

My behavior is in my control

Then why do I act so out of control

Why do I play the victim role?

Get out of this mindset

Get going

The why is less important than changing the behavior

Do what sparks joy

Write my heart out

Be light on my feet

Working hard in this heat

Composing a new song

A new beat

All while staying comfortable in my seat

Why is it so hard for me to share

With the click of the button

And then my work is in public

Sharing is caring

Poem 1 in poem a day challenge - I Wonder

I wonder what I’m going to do

Sometimes I don’t have a clue

I beat myself down

Yet still I rise

I find an insight

A pleasant surprise

Why so hard on myself

I can’t figure out why

It’s better to stop the bad habit

Than dwell in wondering

Tired of wandering along

Taking a different path

Than the heart of my song

Afraid that I’m doing it wrong

Afraid that I’m doing it right

We are all trying are best

Need to be in motion

But now I’m at rest

I put my words to the test

And we shall see

I wonder how good can I be

I feel ugly

But I’m beautiful

I wonder if I’ll change

Turn pain into pleasure

Bad habits still remain

Sometimes it’s good to wonder

What if it all works out?

Meditation is Best

 9-4-22

Go slow to move fast. There are always things that need to be picked up and put away, the magic art of tidying up. It’s what you do when no one's looking. If you only have 15 minutes in the spotlight, it’s what you do in preparation that matters most. Always worried about how I spend my time and am I using it effectively. No need to worry. No more excuses. I have a wealth of time. 

Creativity doesn’t happen in a vacuum. I’m being guided by my spirit guides. They have no names, a rose by any other name will smell as sweet, but they each have distinct personalities. There are my ancestors, my grandparents, and Amir’s grandparents. There’s the physics professor, the dancer, the two logic professors. They each help in my daily choices. Then there’s me, I decide everything.

Why 5 min daily meditations help? Helps declutter the mind, sift through the noise and find what’s truly important. See what I’m thinking and let it go. Put my self-help books information to good use. My mind is blank, but not really blank. I can’t access the subconscious, it’s on autopilot, time to reprogram old, stale, negative thought patterns. I can do anything I set my mind to. Ask why and what you want and your mind will start contemplating the solution to your vision. Why am I so healthy?

I recommend meditation for everyone, it calms the troubled soul. There’s no right or wrong way, good or bad. Let it flow like water smoothing over rocks, creating new grooves in the stone. Family is the most important. Don’t force things, experiment and let things be. My head is buzzing with questions, with static, with noise. How can I do better? How can I be better? Don’t be so impatient. Be patient with yourself. 

Everyone goes at their own pace. It’s not really a race, there is no finish line, it’s only in your mind. There’s always stuff to be gone. I’m getting out of the rat race. I am the cheese and it feels amazing. Time is of the essence and I have time as my ally. I have so much presence, and with meditation, I have peace of mind.

What brings you peace of mind?

SAVERS Saves Me

What is SAVERS?

SAVERS stands for Silence, Affirmations, Visualization, Exercise, Reading, and Scribe (Writing).

Every day I put these disciplines into practice. They come from Hal Elrod's, The Miracle Morning, which I highly recommend.

My morning routine looks something like this:

• First, I wake up using Mel Robbins' 5 second rule and countdown 5, 4, 3, 2, 1 get up. This rule encourages action. It's the simple things, that we all know intuitively, which have the most impact. 
• Next, I eat breakfast because I am hungry first thing in the morning. 
• Then I do 5 minutes of guided meditation on Insight Timer, which is free and I highly recommend downloading (there are so many great meditations). It helps me to clear my mind from all the noise and clutter. 
• Then, I do walk at home with Leslie Sansone, a 15-minute mile. There's always time for 15 minutes of exercise. 
• Next, I read 10 pages of a self-help book. Today I'm reading Jeff Olson's, The Slight Edge, which I highly recommend because it ties all the other self-help books together. It helps me with its philosophy to take action on the small, positive disciplines and choices that I make every day. Depending on your choices it grows exponentially either in a positive or negative direction. 
• After, I write my 3-morning pages like Julia Cameron in the Artists Way. I still don't know what to do with all of these pages, but she doesn't recommend keeping them. They also take up space and lead to clutter. It's more to focus my thoughts and practice gratitude or brain dump what to do for the day. 
• Finally, I take 5 more minutes and make a daily plan with the MIT Most Important Task of the day. Today it's learning Hebrew. 

After all this, I'm ready to face the day with openness and a smile. 

What is your morning routine and how is it working for you? 

Sweet Escape

Sweet Escape-Gwen Stefani

This song was stuck in my head today. Sometimes the best way to get a song out of your head is to listen to it. Enjoy.  

Superpharm

I just got a job at Superpharm. I'm working at Superpharm to improve my Hebrew and my Hebrew has improved dramatically. My coworkers are enthusiastic and fun to be around. I even got a high five at work and people always tell me Batslacha בהצלחה which means good luck. It is hard when the customers speak to you rapidly in Hebrew with an impatient attitude. Ein Savlanut אין סבלנות, no patience. Maybe I should write a Hebrew blog. It would be a lot shorter. I can't wait to be able to express myself in Hebrew. Maybe one day...

Soon I will be in cita bet which for my English speaking friends means level 2. I was told the class was full via email-just this and nothing more. Israelis are so direct. So what do I do? I do what some Israelis do, I push until I get what I want. I go through the window, forget the back door. I talked with the secretary and told her I already paid and that I really want to be in this class. She finally said I could join in 2 weeks. Success.

9-29-13

Today was my first day of Ulpan at Ulpan Gordon. I joined halfway through the class. It was challenging because the teacher spoke only in Hebrew. It was from 8:15-12. I sat next to someone from Providence, RI, small world. We studied the future tense. I'm going to try the class again tomorrow.

After Ulpan, I went back home to be there for the internet to be installed. Now we have fast internet, yay.